Saturday, February 20, 2010

Because sometimes food IS love....

I started today with a very very old family recipe. It's an acquired taste. And it's certainly not health food. In fact, I will say it's a recipe that "we" would by most accounts be terrified of. But it reminds me of my childhood. Deep fried rice cakes, smothered with butter and syrup. And I remembered the absolute feeling of being full, and nourished. And knowing it was special food and not something to eat every day. And the smell of the crisping rice rising from the hot oil. And my grandmother lifting them up still slightly sizzling onto the plate.

And today, for the first time ever I also baked bread. Not low fat. Not dense whole wheat. Just plain old gorgeous white bread. And it came out JUST RIGHT. And we all just basked in the deliciousness of the aroma that filled the house as it baked. How incredible it was to be baking one of the simplest, yet most satisfying foods that there is. BREAD. One of the foods that has been basic to humanity since the history of cooking. BREAD. One of the foods that women in particular have known how to make around the world in some form or another for centuries upon centuries.

And my children ate this bread, and felt nourished inside, much as I felt nourished by my grandmothers rice cakes.

When we care for others, we nourish them, we fill them, we take care of them. And food, is one of the very basic ways in which we do this. Denying ourselves of food and the opportunities to be loved THROUGH food... is a very very sad thing indeed.

4 comments:

Lisa said...

i honestly am so PROUD at far you have come in the past months. you are truly an inspiration and i know that recovery is possible because i read/hear your words.

love you to the moon and back,
lis

Amy said...

thank you, your trust and respect is humbling.

Dana said...

I always fail ever time I try to make bread! hah, i've done it in the bread machine and out and I can never get it right. Funny thing is, I bake ALL the time but have NO luck with break. You must tell us your secrets! Congrats on making the white bread!
<3

Amy said...

My favorite cookbook is the Joy of Cooking- isn't that ironic??? it has never failed me. I have been using the bread recipes in there! I have found you must use fresh yeast, keep it refrigerated, don't overknead it, and be patient while it rises. Bread is really the easiest thing. A little extra yeast, extra salt and extra sugar seem to help. AND cooking in warm rooms. (if you live somewhere dry that doesn't help).

good luck and don't give up!